Posted by admin on 11 December 2009
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Posted by admin on 6 December 2009
In the far west of Germany there’s a custom according to which in the night before the first of may, young men put up festively decorated birch trees in front of their loved one’s house. The girl is supposed to return the favor by giving a cask of beer or a huge paper heart to the boy later on. I’d always dismissed this kind of stuff as rural, supplicating bullshit. Jodie, however, like most any girl, was really into that kind of validation, asking me months before if I would put up a tree for her. Like any self respecting guy, I said no. Read the rest of this entry »
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In the far west of Germany there's a custom according to which in the night before the first of may, young men put up festively decorated birch trees in front of their loved one's house. The girl is supposed to return the favor by giving a cask of beer or a huge paper heart to the boy later on. I'd always dismissed this kind of stuff as rural, supplicating bullshit. Jodie, however, like most any girl, was really into that kind of validation, asking me months before if I would put up a tree for her. Like any self respecting guy, I said no.
The may night, however, is also Walpurgis Night, a night of general mischief, and so it is just as common to steal these trees. So after going out with the boys that night, I thought why not have some fun and maybe surprise my love as well. And indeed, after scouting out the whole neighborhood and avoiding rivaling troops, I found a huge (about 5 m) tree, unfastened it from a house and carried it to Jodie's home with my bare hands. I felt truly heroic. Unfortunately, thi
6Dec
Posted by admin on 5 December 2009
Jane was the polar opposite of Jodie in almost every way. Brought up sheltered, disaster had struck her in her teens, and she was ever since learning to cope with life in a constructive and active way. It had made her a sweet yet strong young woman, the most trustworthy one I’ve ever met. She had been sticking with me as my girlfriend through quite some hardships for years, and we have been very happy at times. Read the rest of this entry »
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Jane was the polar opposite of Jodie in almost every way. Brought up sheltered, disaster had struck her in her teens, and she was ever since learning to cope with life in a constructive and active way. It had made her a sweet yet strong young woman, the most trustworthy one I've ever met. She had been sticking with me as my girlfriend through quite some hardships for years, and we have been very happy at times.
Building Karma
However, for karmic reasons, this whole time I could not bring myself to lead a monogamous life. I have always honest been about this, yet even finding the degree of openness that hurt the least proved a complicated fight in the long run, a fight that could not be won as I am now convinced. That was because Jane always dreamed of being the only one for me, something I could not give to her. This fact was clear maybe six months into the relationship, yet we carried on for more than four years together. Some months into my affair with Jodie, Jane finally pulled the plug. I still don't k
5Dec
Posted by admin on 3 December 2009
Jodie was a survival machine. Her story was that she had been mistreated badly by her single mother, left home as soon as she could, fought for herself all her life. This part of karma is what is usually explained by former lives. Doesn’t matter if you buy it. Not even a real beauty, she nonetheless had learned how to seduce any man she needed for self validation. And self validation she needed a lot. Her relationships tended to get fucked up real fast. No surprises here, no need for psychological analysis, it can all be nicely explained by karma – impressions that shape the subconscious. But that was her karma. How did I get caught up in that, and why? Read the rest of this entry »
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Jodie was a survival machine. Her story was that she had been mistreated badly by her single mother, left home as soon as she could, fought for herself all her life. This part of karma is what is usually explained by former lives. Doesn't matter if you buy it. Not even a real beauty, she nonetheless had learned how to seduce any man she needed for self validation. And self validation she needed a lot. Her relationships tended to get fucked up real fast. No surprises here, no need for psychological analysis, it can all be nicely explained by karma - impressions that shape the subconscious. But that was her karma. How did I get caught up in that, and why?
The How
I met Jodie at a party. She's extremely social, the kind of girl that approaches a man. We talked and flirted for quite some time - as I said, this girl knows how to entertain a gentleman - until suddenly she burst away, jumping to put her arms around what must have been her boyfriend. I was slightly irritated, but drank on, flirting with another
3Dec
Posted by admin on 2 December 2009
The Buddhist view of karma is that of cause and effect. It doesn’t mean fate or anything like that, but refers to the effects that your thinking, speaking, and acting has on the world, and on your inner world in particular. The interesting thing is that karma makes people act in unconscious ways because of what they have done earlier (even in earlier lifes, though for me personally, this is more of a metaphor. More on that in another post.), and it makes the world treat you in specific ways because of what you have done. So it is often translated as cause and effect, but the ways in which it works are often so complex that the scientific notion of cause and effect is insufficient to describe it, and concepts like synchronicity seem more appropriate. An interesting view of karma is that it gives us a chance to learn. I have recently had the doubious pleasure of experiencing intense karma firsthand. In the next days I will publish three gruelling short stories that might illustrate what I mean. And yes, they are all about sex and relationships.
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The Buddhist view of karma is that of cause and effect. It doesn't mean fate or anything like that, but refers to the effects that your thinking, speaking, and acting has on the world, and on your inner world in particular. The interesting thing is that karma makes people act in unconscious ways because of what they have done earlier (even in earlier lifes, though for me personally, this is more of a metaphor. More on that in another post.), and it makes the world treat you in specific ways because of what you have done. So it is often translated as cause and effect, but the ways in which it works are often so complex that the scientific notion of cause and effect is insufficient to describe it, and concepts like synchronicity seem more appropriate. An interesting view of karma is that it gives us a chance to learn. I have recently had the doubious pleasure of experiencing intense karma firsthand. In the next days I will publish three gruelling short stories that might illustrate what I mean. And yes, they ar
2Dec
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